Raining today, & Im thinking about all I have lost in my divorce.
I know this is not the way to get past the pain, but really why even try?
I believe in basking in whatever emotion pops up, experiencing that emotion fully, & moving forward. Ignoring it does no good.
So...I dropped the boys off at school, then drove back home, parked in front of my home, rain falling, heater blasted, wipers wiping.
I didnt cry today, I just thought. I thought about Jim & his laugh.I thought about him with his new wife, & the beautiful journey they are embarking on together... baby on the way.
I can honestly say that my thoughts about this are bittersweet.
I have lost my husband, but I somehow cannot muster up hate or discontent where this new life is concerned.
Have experienced it myself & know that its the most amazing thing 2 people can do... bringing life into this world.
I thought about our little house in RS.
I feel so sad that Jim has just thrown us to the curb like trash.
Especially the boys. I wonder if he will ever talk to them again.
Its all so surreal to me right now.
I feel like this disregarded being. Rejected, scorned.
How long til' I can breathe again? Ugh.

Its been over 2 years since I have posted/blogged. Facebook seems to have everyones attention, & I have found myself caught up in this trend.
Ive gone through a divorce, & need a place to write about feelings & process through some of it if I choose to do so, but feel uncomfortable doing it so publicly.
I know anyone who wants to can also come visit here, & I welcome all to do so, I just feel this is a somewhat more private way to do go about it.
I also will not be changing the name of the blog-page yet, I am still Jeannie O'Lexey, & will be forever if I dont marry again. Is what it is. :)
Stay posted for what the boys & I are up to. We are embarking upon a new chapter in our lives & welcome your interest in checkin' out our blog.
All is well, & life IS beautiful. Peace.

New Years Weekend Celebration with family.

We had a great time in Utah spending New Years Eve at Keys on Main (Just the grown-ups) Then the following day we all exchanged gifts and had a wonderful meal planned by Mom & Dad. It was really a great time. The boys & I stayed longer than we had planned because we couldn't barer to leave. We cant wait to do it again next year. Happy New Year to all!!!

Keys on Main for New Years Eve!!

Christmas Day.

We had a quiet Christmas at home. Kayden spent the holiday with the Burns, so it was just the 3 of us.. Braxt, Jim & I.

Tubing at Blairtown Park.

Kayden had 5 friends spend the night to celebrate his Birthday. We went tubing at the park & then came back to warm up with hot chocolate, chilli & cake. It was a really fun night!! Jim had a great time with the kids while I took pictures. I really love Kaydens buddies! They are great kids. Thanks for celebrating with us Boys.